The right decision
Mar. 15th, 2026 12:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
baroque_mongooseWell. I've talked to quite a number of people, and everyone agrees that I'm doing exactly the right thing. I also feel a deep sense of peace about it. So I have just e-mailed my sister with a formal decision. If it there is no way of making it possible for me to inherit on equal terms with my sisters, then I formally decline the inheritance and direct that it should be given, in its entirety, to the Bible Society. And serve that abusive, controlling old atheist right. He'd have been absolutely furious and I do not give a straw.
Yes, it's a lot of money (it's six figures); but it's still only money. It's not a fair exchange for either my dignity or my reputation, let alone both. I also could not in all honesty claim to need it. It would certainly be very useful; it would mean I could move back up to Kendal, as I've wanted to do for very many years (since well before I came here, in fact - the only reason I'm here at all is because of my illness in 2016). But it's not necessary. I'm financially stable, and have been so ever since shortly after I finally managed to get rid of Bob the Lodger. I have something Elon Musk doesn't have (and is chronically unable to obtain): enough. I spent a lot of years not having enough, so I know what enough looks like. I'm content.
I can't go without adding that d'Artagnan has been a rock through all this. I had a rotten upbringing and a rotten marriage... but I have the very best best friend. And that's something no amount of money can buy.
My sister, who's 100% in my corner, is now doing her best to work out how to dismantle the monkey trap. If she does, excellent; if not, well, I'm not under any obligation to put my hand in it. And that's how things are going to be.
Yes, it's a lot of money (it's six figures); but it's still only money. It's not a fair exchange for either my dignity or my reputation, let alone both. I also could not in all honesty claim to need it. It would certainly be very useful; it would mean I could move back up to Kendal, as I've wanted to do for very many years (since well before I came here, in fact - the only reason I'm here at all is because of my illness in 2016). But it's not necessary. I'm financially stable, and have been so ever since shortly after I finally managed to get rid of Bob the Lodger. I have something Elon Musk doesn't have (and is chronically unable to obtain): enough. I spent a lot of years not having enough, so I know what enough looks like. I'm content.
I can't go without adding that d'Artagnan has been a rock through all this. I had a rotten upbringing and a rotten marriage... but I have the very best best friend. And that's something no amount of money can buy.
My sister, who's 100% in my corner, is now doing her best to work out how to dismantle the monkey trap. If she does, excellent; if not, well, I'm not under any obligation to put my hand in it. And that's how things are going to be.
